One thing I’ve learned over the years working at home is that you can find Magda wherever the light is shining through. I’m trying to mimic that in these hard times.

But it’s tough.

With schools closing for the remainder of the year and talk of things being like this for 18 mos., I am so sad for my kid. When will he get to see his friends again? When can he go back to the playground? We are doing our best to keep him learning and having fun every day, but thinking about this being our life for the next year or so is incredibly depressing. I can only hope that each state’s leadership pulls through to guide people through the best that they can. I know ours has done really well so far — very hard choices, but trying their best to keep options open for low income families. The options for our leadership are so difficult in these times.

And I just want to be clear that the president I did not elect is in no way showing ANY sort of leadership and I hope karma bites him in the ass soon. But back to trying to find the light.

Some of the good that has come out of these circumstances is that we are getting truly quality family time. There’s a lot of reading and drawing and family walks and games by the fire. There’s baking and laughing and dance parties. We’re helping Ezra as he works on writing his letters and learning addition as well as just listening to music and staring off into space (something his parents excel at). In general, we’re getting lots of quiet. And we haven’t had that in a long time.

I think this time is also a great opportunity to teach about selflessness.

I woke up at 4 am today thinking about our nation, and I wrote this on Facebook. Just some food for thought.

Up all night thinking about the selfishness I keep seeing, and it's really getting me down.

+ We would all love to head to the beach/bar/gathering. But this is the time to stay isolated with our families despite our own good health so that we can protect others.

+ We would LOVE to send our kid to the playground with the groups of kids we see playing there (OMG does that sound great). But this is the time for social distancing so that we don't spread illness to those who are at risk.

+ Of course we would feel safer if we could hoard all the supplies to keep our own families fed and clean. But this is the time to only take what we need and make sure there is enough left for those with less resources.

+ We would love to vote for those who only serve our own needs, who would only make us more money and who would protect our own religious beliefs. But this is the time to think of the world as a whole and those who have less than we do.

Pull it together, America.